I MISS YOU SON I LOVE YOU

KEEPING YOUR MEMORY ALIVE......9 YEARS WITH TEARS...LOVE U TWON

HEY TWON , LIFE IS OKAY!! I KNOW YOU ARE HAVING A GOOD REST.   TOOK OUT SOME PICTURES OF YOU AND JUST HURT AND PAIN FILL MY HEART.  I KNOW I WILL SEE U AGAIN. LOVE ALWAYS YOUR MOM!!!

TWON, I MISSED YOU AGAIN ON NEW YEARS EVE. I REMEMBER HOW YOU WOULD COME OVER AND PARTY WITH ME. YOU WOULD SHOOT YOUR GUN ON NEW YEARS EVE AND ALL OF US WERE STUNNED!!! WE WOULD ALL HAVE SO MUCH FUN.  I TOLD YOU I AM GOING TO KEEP YOUR MEMORY ALIVE!!!

MERRY XMAS TWON!!!! I REMEMEBER YOU TRYING TO SCRAP UP FOR YOUR KIDS TO HAVE A GREAT XMAS.  YOU WERE A GREAT EXAMPLE OF WHAT A GOOD FATHER IS!!!!!!

MY BABY TWON IN 8TH GRADE

INSPIRATION:

 

TWON AND LESLIE

A WOMAN IN THE OLD TESTAMENT SUFFERED THE LOSS OF EVERYTHING.  SHE WAS NO SUPER SAINT.  SHE FELT THE BITTERNESS AND HOPLESSNESS THAT ACCOMPANIES GRIEF.  HER NAME WAS NAOMI.  BECAUSE THERE WAS FAMINE IN ISRAEL, A HEBREW MAN ELIMELECH TOOK HIS WIFE, NAOMI, AND HIS TWO SONS TO LIVE IN MOAB.  THE FAMILY INTENDED TO STAY TEMPORARILY, BUT THEY SETTLED DOWN IN A GODLESS SOCIETY FOR TEN YEARS.  THE TWO SONS MARRIED.  NAOMI FELT A SENSE OF LOSS.  THEY WERE ALIENS AWAY FROM FAMILY AND FRIENDS, AND NOW SHE HAD TWO DAUGHTER IN LAWS  FROM MOAB. NOW NAOMI'S HUSBAND, DIED AND SHE WAS LEFT WITH HER TWO SONS. AFTER THEY LIVED THERE FOR TEN YEARS, BOTH SONS DIED.  WHEN NAOMI FOUND OUT THE FAMINE HAD ENDED, SHE PREPARED TO GO BACK HOME. WHEN SHE TOLD HER TWO DAUGHTER IN LAWS THEY WANTED TO GO WITH HER.  BUT SHE SAID RETURN HOME, MY DAUGHTERS.  WHY WOULD YOU COME WITH ME AM I GOING TO HAVE MORE SONS, WHO COULD BECOME YOUR HUSBANDS?

IT IS CLEAR THAT THESE WOMEN LOVED EACH OTHER. THEY HAD ALL SUFFERED TERRIBLE LOSSES, AND THEY WEPT TOGETHER AT THE THOUGHT OF SEPARATION.  GOD GAVE US TEARS TO CRY.  NAOMI WASNT AFRAID TO FEEL HER GRIEF. NOT ONLY WAS SHE IN EXTREME PAIN, BUT IT WAS CLEAR WHO BLAMED FOR HER LOSS.  "THE LORDS HAND HAS GONE OUT AGAINST ME!  DONT CALL ME NAOMI, CALL ME MARA, BECAUSE THE ALMIGHTY  HAS MADE MY LIFE BITTER.  " I WENT AWAY FULL, BUT THE LORD HAS BROUGHT ME BACK EMPTY."  HER MISERY WAS EVIDENT IN HER DEMEANOR, BECAUSE WHEN SHE GOT BACK HOME FRIENDS HARDLY RECONIZED HER.  SHE HAD NO CERTAINTY ABOUT THE FUTURE. BY NOW, HER DAUGHTER IN LAW RUTH HAD INSISTED ON GOING HOME WITH HER, BUT HOW WERE THEY TO LIVE?   NAOMI FELT ABANDONED BY GOD.  WHATEVER THE PAIN, GOD MEANS IT FOR GOOD IN OUR LIVES JUST AS HE DID IN JOSEPH'S.  JOSEPH WAS ABLE AFTER TWENTY YEARS TO SAY AFTER HE HAD LOST EVERYTHING THROUGH HATRED AND CRUELTY OF HIS BROTHERS: "YOU INTENDED TO HARM ME, BUT GOD INTENDED IT FOR GOOD TO ACCOMPLISH WHAT IS NOW BEING DONE, THE SAVING OF MANY LIVES."

NAOMI AND RUTH RETURNED HOME.  THE DAUGHTER IN LAW RUTH SPOKE UP AND SAID" LET ME GO TO THE FIELDS AND PICK UP THE LEFTOVER GRAIN.  NAOMI TOLD HER TO GO AHEAD.  RUTH WENT.  GOD IS  KEEPING HIS PROMISE TO DEFEND " THE CAUSE OF THE FATHERLESS AND THE WIDOW GIVING THEM FOOD AND CLOTHING.  WHEN NAOMI FOUND OUT WHO RUTH WORKED FOR, SHE SAID," THE LORD BLESS HIM"  HE HAS NOT STOPPED SHOWING HIS KINDNESS TO THE LIVING AND TO THE DEAD." THAT MAN IS OUR CLOSE RELATIVE, HE IS ONE OF OUR KINSMAN- REDEEMERS"

 

 

hey antoine. man its been so long but our family was blessed for God gave us such a wonderful gift that I will always and forever cherish. words can't express how much I miss you but I know now that you are in a better place and I'm happy to know that ur in God's hands now. Your smile always brightened the room and that is aa memory I will always cherish. I thank you for the talks we've shared and your advice on education and boys lol. I love you so much and miss you dearly and one day i will see you again. With much love, your lil cousin Britt-Britt. <3 <3 <3

YOUR DAUGHTER AT HER GRADUATION

NO ONE CAN TAKE AWAY THE FACT THAT YOU WERE A GREAT DAD. 

ANTOINE I REMEMBER THE DRAMA OUR/YOUR FAMILY HAD BACK THEN AND GUESS WHAT?.... IT HAS'NT CHANGED! ITS A DAMN SHAME, THEY STILL CANT COME2GETHER! MY MOST RECENT HAPPY MEMORY IS MY FLY ASS NIECE GRADUATING FROM THE 8TH GRADE. LOOK AT HER! THEY R DOING SO WELL. I LUV YA! MS. SAK

DEAR TWON,

I AM WRITING TODAY BECAUSE I DONT FEEL WELL.  I 'M IN ONE OF MY DEPRESSED MODES.  BUT I DO REMEMBER WHAT YOU SAID.   THE DEVIL IS A LIAR.  YOUR DAUGHTER GRADUATED AND WITH HONORS.  SHE LOOKED SO PRETTY.  ALL YOUR GIRLS ARE BEAUTIFUL.  AS USUAL OUR FAMILY REMAINS DIVIDED.  I'VE DECIDED TO LET GO AND LET GOD.  I HAVE ALSO LEARNED THAT I CANT BE A HELP TO ANYONE BEFORE HELPING MYSELF.  AS YOU CAN TELL I AM TAKING YOUR DEPARTURE HARD.  I REALLY NEED TO SEEK GUIDANCE IN THAT AREA.  YOUR MOM HAS BEEN  THROUGH SOME ROUGH TIMES.  STARTING FROM 13 YEARS OF AGE ON UP.  JUST KNOW THAT YOUR MOM DIDNT LIE TO YOU ABOUT THINGS THAT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH.  FROM A TENDER AGE OF 13, I HAVE CARRIED SO MUCH HURT.  JUST KNOW THAT YOU LEAVING ME IS WORSE THAN WHAT THOSE GUYS DID TO ME.  I HAVE HELD A LOT OF THINGS INSIDE BUT I PREVAILED.  I AM GOING TO GET THE HELP I NEED.  THANKS FOR BELIEVING IN ME NO MATTER WHAT.  YOU GO AHEAD AND REST NOW.  GOD KNEW MY LIFE BEFORE I WAS CONCIEVED AND HE HAS THE LAST WORD.  LOVE AND MISS YOU.

ANTOINE  PEOPLE SAY YOU CANT HEAR ME BUT I DONT CARE CAUSE YOU CAME TO ME ONE NIGHT AND WAS LAUGHING SAYING MOM YOURE CRAZY.  WHOMEVER DOESNT BELIEVE THAT  THEN  I CANT HELP THAT.  GOD KNOWS YOU TALKED TO ME.  KEEP ON SHOWING ME YOUR PRESENCE.  THE DEATH OF A CHILD IS THE MOST DEVASTATING EVENT.  BUT WHEN YOU FEEL THEIR PRESENCE THEYRE STILL HERE. 

I REMEMBER WHEN YOU ALWAYS KEPT IN TOUCH WITH ME NO MATTER WHAT.  YOU ALWAYS COMFORTED ME IN OUR PRIVATE CONVERSATIONS.  YOU ALWAYS CAME BY TO CHECK ON ME AND LEAVE WITH SOME MONEY, KISSES AND GOOD ADVICE.  I WISHED I WOULD HAD LISTENED TO YOUR ADVICE ABOUT MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MEN.  YOU COULD HAVE WROTE A BOOK ON MY LIFE.  I AM PAYING CLOSE ATTENTION NOW.  I DONT CARE WHAT ANYONE SAYS I STILL FEEL YOUR PRESENCE EVERYTIME SOMETHING GOES WRONG.  I HEAR YOU TELLING ME THINGS ARE GOING TO BE BETTER, BECAUSE YOU CARE.

i remember the 1st time i saw you i the lunchroom at carver and my eyes were drawn directly to you and you said to me hey what's ur name and i smiled we played tag 4 a whole year and i remember our 1st kiss, hug, 1st walk in the park the way you dance just seemd like you were doing your thing. lol.................i especially remember when we went to the home coming dance and we danced th nite away i still have da pics.....you have such a beautiful smile and that's just how i want to remember you...smiling rememberiny our initials LDW n ADW always and 4eva

HEYYY NIGGA(THIS IS HOW WE TALK) I LOVE AND DREAD MY LAST MEMORY. Y? CUZ I DIDNT WANT, HOPE, OR THINK, IT WOULD B THE LAST TIME I WOULD C U, HEAR UR VOICE, LAUGH WIT U, TALK MESS, STEAL UR CD OUTTA UR TRUCK ETC. LOL LONG STORY SHORT, U DROPPED ME OFF AND SAID C U LATER LIL SIS. WHO KNEW THAT WOULD MEAN N ANOTHER LIFETIME? MAN U FAUGHT UR ASS OFF! I USE2WONDER Y U GAVE UP. I MUST SAY WHEN I GOT THOSE SCARY, PHONE CALLS THAT NIGHT AND WHEN I ARRIVED AT THE HOSPITAL AND HEARD THOSE WORDS, AND I QUOTE "HE'S EXPIRED", THAT WAS AND STILL THE WORST AND MOST MEMORABLE DAY OF MY LIFE! I LOVE U AND ALTHOUGH UR NOT HERE N DA FLESH, U R HERE ALL THE TIME. N MY LIFE, ON MY MIND N MY THOUGHTS, N MY HEART, ON MY WALLS, WHEN I C MY NIECES. I LOVE U AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN OVER AND OVER! BEYOND DEATH DOING BROTHER AND SISTER PART. WE CAN NEVER PART. REMEMBER WHAT U SAID TO ME THAT DAY N DA CAR? IT WAS JUST ME AND U(N SPIRIT) "SONIA I'M OK, STOP CRYING, I,M N A BETTER PLACE. DO U WANNA COME?" NO NOT RIGHT NOW, BUT TIL WE MEET AGAIN. THE STORM IS OVA NOW ANTOINE.